Tumblr seems like a nice place to write what I’m thinking, so I’m gonna just knock my self out. Yesterday I lost my Nan and I don’t really know what I’m thinking. Even though I knew it was coming and she was real sick it really still hasn’t sunk in. I’m looking at pictures on my laptop and have real nice ones from my birthday and last christmas that I’m looking at and can’t quite understand how she could be so healthy, when it wasn’t even that long ago. I’ve always been used to having my nan just round the corner. She called an ambulance for me when I was 3 or 4 when I cracked my head open on her table. When I was 8 she came out of my front door when I got home and told me that my Dad had died. When I was ill she’d come and pick me up from school and put blankets on me and let me watch whatever I liked. She cooked me spaghetti bolognese every monday for the whole time I was at secondary school and then we’d watch countdown and deal or no deal together. And when I failed my driving test last month I called her and she sat on the phone convincing me that It’ll be okay and all the examiners are just idiots :) She’s been a key person in my life for the last 18 years and I’m not really sure how everything will be fine without her. She’s always supported me for who I am, always asked when I was gonna bring my girlfriend back round to see her, and always had cans Dr Pepper and kit kats waiting for me in the cupboard for when I next came round. I love my nan so much, and am really dreading not having her here with us on christmas day. It probably annoyed her a little bit, but i loved calling her up on christmas morning telling her and grandad to hurry up and come round! I love my Nan so much and I know she loved me equally, but I guess this is just how life goes right? You can’t have everyone forever.
I love you :)
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I love you more :)
Listening to Taylor Swifts ‘Sounds of the Season’. Because it’s December 1st and I can :)